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DjembaDjemba

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  1. Its illegal cause its naturally subversive, it encourages lateral thinking and causes people to question a lot of things the powers that be would rather you didn't question. Its nothing to do with harmful effects thats not the issue. Read what Chomsky says about it thats why its really illegal, it appeals to certain subsets of society and has a subversive effect on the young.

  2. When I was in high school I was really happy and really enjoyed it. When it got to 5th year everyone started talking about going to uni. The only thing I knew I ever wanted to do when I was younger was to join the Fire service. However they told me that due to being short sighted, I couldn't join, and bang went that. Since then I've had no idea. In 5th year everyone started talking about going to uni, so I thought I would go too. I had no desire to do so really but did so as I didn't know what else to do. I went to Abertay in 2002 and it was a massive disaster. I had never really been away from home like that before and had never had so much money given to me at once (this was when the student loans were given in 3 installments). When I got my award from SAAS I saw it wouldn't cover my rent for halls. My parent's great advice was, 'get a job'. I'd never had a 'proper' job as such at that point so was clueless over that as well. I ended up getting 2 overdrafts to pay for shit (this was when you could just walk in to a bank and get one). I had to leave after first year due to not having a fucking clue what I was doing.

    What then followed was four years of shit. I got a job at Sky where I worked 5-10pm Mon-Fri. This is where I started to lose touch with people and became withdrawn as well as feeling depressive thoughts for the first time. I also started to fire on weight. I then got a job at Bank Of Scotland, which was truly awful. I despised it. I really put on weight then as it became my coping mechanism. I lost more friends as found I was just staying in. I lost all my confidence as I put on weight. I came to pretty much hate myself. About the only positive is that I paid off my overdrafts. I became really depressed during this time.

    Still not having a clue what I wanted to do in life, only that I cannot stand the 9-5 bullshit, I decided to go back to uni. At first it was brilliant, but I was like a 'dry drunk' and once I had a few issues the depression came back hard. I spent 5 years and only got to 3rd year. I reinstated my two overdrafts and got another one. In my last couple of months I was all fucked up as I knew I would have to leave uni but knew I would have to get a job doing something I had no interest in. I managed to get four payday loans and a credit card all in one week.

    I'm now working in a job that's alright, but again it's a 9-5 effort 5 days a week. I have zero interest in it. I have zero interest in wasting my life sitting bored and disinterested all day doing something I couldn't give a shit about. Life is so precious and to waste it like that is obscene. I've wasted the last 10 years of my life and at times it catches me and I can't breathe for a second, and I feel like I've done something utterly unforgivabley awful by doing so. I've seen good friends live good happy lives and some are married and having kids and I feel so uttely alone.

    I still don't know what I want to do; I only know what I don't want to do. It's why I've had about 30 jobs so far.

    So I think I can trace my problems with depression to feeling trapped living a lifestyle that I can't stand but not having a way out that I can see and feeling that I'm slowly dying.

    I can relate to this as it's happened (happening) to me. It's tough. Same with the whole trying to get a job thing. It's a killer when you're scrambling about trying to get a shitty job but can't even get that, even though you know you could do it well and are probably overqualified in terms of experience for it.

    Holy shit I can really relate to this post. I can't be bothered typing my story but its pretty similar.

    I have been getting treated for depression for 8 years, though this year just stopped taking my pills completely and haven't started again. It was a high dose and they fucked with my system.

  3. So what do people think will eventually spell the end for this generation's young Scottish superstar? Will it be the brutal, knee-high killer tackle from some Romanian no-mark on his Scotland debut, or the inevitably career-ending move tO Celtic?

    I'm praying we finally get a break and one of our bright talents finally goes on to fulfil his potential, minus any complications.

    I think you are being far too pessimistic, I think Gauld will go on to have a great intl career with Ireland.

  4. That's a good point, joining Real Madrid would be such an escape there's no media crawling all over them 24 hours a day. Perhaps if that's not quiet enough he could go to Bayern Munich.

  5. is going to be a superstar.

    In Scotland we have an archaic attitude to lots of aspects of football. Holland, who are obviously much better than us, just named a guy in their senior squad who made his first team debut 3 weeks ago.

    We have no meaningful games for the next year. Gauld is clearly going to make that number 10 role in behind the striker his own sooner or later.

    Should he not be chucked in now give him as much experience as possible before the games start to count? IMO he shoud feature in the games against Norway and USA, I would have him in the squad and start him in both.

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