[Depression]

had awful side effects from setraline steeljag

tried citalopram too but was coinstantly tired on them and a lot of sexual side effects from them too

how do you cope with social gatherings?

[Depression]

Hi slenderman

i have stopped my meds

was also given propanolol but havent taken them as much

drink is my only wee fallback

if i could go out and enjoy myself without it then i would give the drink a rest believe me

drink makes me open up. Dont have much feelings without it

it just flicks a switch

[Depression]

Hi Donnie

I try and find out firstly how many people are going to be at the night out befiore deciding on if i should go or the best excuse i can come up with

i am doing CBT at the moment. was asked if there was a specific moment in life which has mad me feel this way. I said no. But recently have veeb trying to go back and think of bad things which have happened and i came up with one

When i was 22 i was takin E's and coke every weekend

One time my dealer gave me a big bag of speed which was over the top in terms of quantity

Got that fcuked up on i reailsed my jeans were dirty so went to the nearest train station and climbed to the top and waited for a train to arrive before trying to jump off

luckily my mates were calling me non stop so decided against it. I can vaguely remember being at a party at the night before and was convinced i was being laughed at cos my jeans were dirty. White jeans btw lol

These days i just feel i dont add much cos i am so quiet without a drink in me

i am desperste to fight it and want to just get on in life

concentrating on the job at the moment but in time i know the work night will come

i am very quiet that some folk may think it seems ignorant

[Depression]

8 years that should have read

[Depression]

ok here goes

basically fucked up in the head for roughly past years

mainly social anxiety and slightly depressed

been given fluoxetine which has helped with the depression but not the SA

i am terrified of going out if it involves more than one person. I can cope if just goin out with someone and thats it

Anytime i am out all i can think of is just being back home cos i feel safe there

To compensate i end up getting smashed as a coping mechanism which sometimes leads to other problems

i have started a new job and its been going well but the work night out will arrive at some point

I want to fit in as much as i can but at the same time i want to keep myself to myself

Any others with social anxiety with tips on coping in the office?

[Strange dreams]

great thread btw

my dreams seem to have a common theme

a typical dreams consists of nice thoughts, happy times and then absolute terror which just depresses me

things then pick up and feel better again before finally waking up and wishing if only that dream could have lasted maybe an hour longer......

I do strongly believe a lot of dreams are linked to childhood experiences