For the past few days, I've been reduced to a wreck of tears, and I think it's because I feel completely detached and alone at the moment. Whenever I'm with friends, I feel like an observer, just listening and not really contributing much. It's not that I don't want too, I do, it's just I feel like that if I say something, I fear it will be tainted with a tone that is comparable to how I feel just now; which can only really be compared to a painful sense of melancholy. I'm at a complete loss, even though it was only in the middle of last year that I experienced something like this; I can't think of any particular trigger, nor can I think of any particular fix. I want to be around my friends, but I just don't feel like I am of any use to anyone, even myself when I feel like this; I've been sat in my bed since coming back from Uni, curtains drawn and earphones in listening to THE most morose music I've ever heard, crying my eyes out for no other reason than feeling alone. Utterly, utterly dejected. I'm sorry for the mewling but I just wish I didn't have experience this as much as I seem to do.