I've been depressed since I was about 15, maybe longer. Perhaps that's always been the case, I've always had anxiety anyway. I'm in my mid 30's now.
But what I would like to say to everyone, and I really have been to the bottom and exist not far from that all the time, so I get it. It used to really piss me off people who haven't been properly depressed not understanding how devastating it is and how it affects everything.
But anyway what I would like to say is, I manage it okay now and am completely used to it and don't expect it to ever change, but what I would like people on here to understand is it doesn't matter.
It really doesn't, nothing matters at all except one thing, and realising that made me a million times better.
It's only your health. Everything else is gravy if you're healthy. Even if its shit and feels terrible its fine. If you're healthy you're so lucky you have what millions of people including millionaires would kill for and spend all day dreaming of.
I don't know if that sounds as profound as it does to me but its everything.
My grandad used to say if you have your health you're a millionaire. Listen to old people theey have wisdom. Your health is all that matters anything else can be fixed or lived with.
He also said you can get used to anything except hanging. Which is kind of the same.
I was on 40mg of citalopram for 8 years I really do get it, but take nothing now since I realised that.
I hope somebody gets something from that.