Not much of a poster on here but I would firstly like to commend the bravery it's taken, even on an anonymous forum to talk about your own situations. It really puts my problems into perspective, having said that, it still doesn't stop letting it get the better of me. Maybe a vent will help.
Over the last 2 years my girlfriend who is at uni and I have been saving up for a deposit. A year ago my car was written off and all my savings had to go on buyng another. (I can't take any credit and as Im up to my eyeballs in debt as it is which I'm paying off). Since I've bought my new car for 2 1/2 grand I've spent nearly the same on it keeping it on the road. Amongst other things it just seems any time I get a bit of money together it disappears almost immediately. I've now got a year and a half (when she graduates) to get 5 grand together, I've got about £200 so far. I earn a reasonable wage but I never seem to have any money.
I'm pretty self conscious about my appearance, I wouldn't say I'm an ugly guy but I've had a couple of molars removed in the last year or so (which ended up costing me loads with other treatment) and is obvious when I have wide grin, so I avoid laughing in most social situations. I tried to lose a bit of weight to help my appearance which was going well until I took a bad knock at football and hurt my ankle. Once I'd recovered from that I tore tendons in my knee which had me unable to exercise for ages so I've just fell out the habit of exercising now.
Work, which seems to be a common thing here, is another thing. I do like my job and I put my heart and soul into every job I do. When it all goes well, I never hear a thing but if something goes wrong, or is delayed I get left without a name and feel about an inch tall.
Everytine I try to do something I end up going one step forward and two back. I'm now at the stage where I think 'what is the point? In anything?'. I would speak to someone but I think I'd be laughed at if this is all I've got to worry about. My dad used to say when I was a kid I loved feeling sorry for myself and wallowing in my own self pity. Maybe he's right.