I’m struggling to keep my mind occupied, in as much that unless I’m playing football, working, or out socialising, I’m completely devoid of any sort of positive emotion. It’s been a relatively hectic year so far, and I think it’s down to the fact that I can’t really seem to appreciate down-time like I used to. I need to be constantly stimulated by music if I’m out and about, otherwise I just get bored of existing. This has an impact on others around me because from the outside looking in I must look like an unapproachable, miserable c**t who just looks “done” with other people and just listens to music. It’s definitely down, in some part, of just not being comfortable in my own head anymore, and that’s a red-flag for me if there ever was one. All in all, I feel like I’m stuck in a loop whereby I need to be doing something (which isn’t always possible) to feel happy with existing.