congrats to you EZ. I know what you're going through mate, it isn't easy when things dont go as planned. My granddaughter was born with severe brain damage 2 1\2 years ago, resulting in distonic cerebral palsy. I was their when she was born and still struggle with all what happened that night, but it does get easier. There are a host of emotions to endure, but judging by your post I'm sure you'll get their. We never thought we'd smile again, let alone start enjoying life again, but there is light at the end of the tunnel. All the best for the future to you and your family