Lyle Lanley Posted January 2, 2014 Share Posted January 2, 2014 (edited) Evening folks Feeling a lot better in the last few days and it's the Derby tonight Found out this afternoon my mate has been making up shite about me and a few others (including my ex) in the past 2 months. Edited January 2, 2014 by Eoin Doyle 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
NotThePars Posted January 2, 2014 Share Posted January 2, 2014 Of course he's going to do that. You're his girlfriend's ex and you're still featured fairly prominently in his life because of the football. Just take it on the chin and laugh at the fact that he's threatened enough by you to sit and do it. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sarto Mutiny Posted January 2, 2014 Share Posted January 2, 2014 Posting here feels a bit weird, but at this stage I am not sure what else to do. My recent moods have been so up and down that it’s starting to scare me. Sometimes I feel fine, if a little disconnected from the rest of the world. But sometimes I go through wee phases of horrible lows. They generally pass quite quickly, but usually these periods are really intense. I feel short bursts of feeling utterly hopeless to the point of having suicidal thoughts, although I cannot see myself ever acting on those thoughts. I feel paranoid and I lash out at everyone around me. I don’t really want to know what’s going on as I think the effect on my family would be awful if I was found to have depression, or something else. I don’t really want to let the genie out if the bottle and I would rather try and manage it myself, although I am not sure if I can or if that’s in any way healthy. The thing that really bothers me is that there’s nothing going on in my life to cause this. My job is dull but tolerable, it’s not in any danger, I have enough friends and family around me to not feel lonely, and I have no money worries. I have felt like this in the past, but it’s been triggered by a specific event and usually manifests itself with self-destructive behaviour – which usually involves me alienating myself from everyone around me. Also, today for the first time in years I started self harming. I did self-harm a bit around the age of 20, but that was triggered by a specific traumatic event in my life at the time. This wasn’t, which terrifies me. I don’t know what to do as I think this is getting worse. I really don’t know where to go from here. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RH33 Posted January 2, 2014 Share Posted January 2, 2014 I'm a fellow self harmer. Have you tried calling breathing space? Drop me a pm. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
paranoid android Posted January 2, 2014 Author Share Posted January 2, 2014 Posting here feels a bit weird, but at this stage I am not sure what else to do. My recent moods have been so up and down that it’s starting to scare me. Sometimes I feel fine, if a little disconnected from the rest of the world. But sometimes I go through wee phases of horrible lows. They generally pass quite quickly, but usually these periods are really intense. I feel short bursts of feeling utterly hopeless to the point of having suicidal thoughts, although I cannot see myself ever acting on those thoughts. I feel paranoid and I lash out at everyone around me. I don’t really want to know what’s going on as I think the effect on my family would be awful if I was found to have depression, or something else. I don’t really want to let the genie out if the bottle and I would rather try and manage it myself, although I am not sure if I can or if that’s in any way healthy. The thing that really bothers me is that there’s nothing going on in my life to cause this. My job is dull but tolerable, it’s not in any danger, I have enough friends and family around me to not feel lonely, and I have no money worries. I have felt like this in the past, but it’s been triggered by a specific event and usually manifests itself with self-destructive behaviour – which usually involves me alienating myself from everyone around me. Also, today for the first time in years I started self harming. I did self-harm a bit around the age of 20, but that was triggered by a specific traumatic event in my life at the time. This wasn’t, which terrifies me. I don’t know what to do as I think this is getting worse. I really don’t know where to go from here. Rowan is right, mate - ask for help. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lyle Lanley Posted January 4, 2014 Share Posted January 4, 2014 Feeling like crap today 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KeeperDee Posted January 4, 2014 Share Posted January 4, 2014 Feeling like crap today You got Facebook bud? Much more likely to respond to a PM there. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lyle Lanley Posted January 4, 2014 Share Posted January 4, 2014 You got Facebook bud? Much more likely to respond to a PM there. Aye mate 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KeeperDee Posted January 4, 2014 Share Posted January 4, 2014 Aye mate Add me on that if you'd like. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
P.C Posted January 6, 2014 Share Posted January 6, 2014 Ho do you think he or she will feel about that in the morning? She seemed ok with it... 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EdgarusQPFC Posted January 6, 2014 Share Posted January 6, 2014 Had a shite time of it the last few weeks, still waiting on those blood test results 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
throbber Posted January 6, 2014 Share Posted January 6, 2014 today must be the toughest day of the year to get out of bed 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
NotThePars Posted January 6, 2014 Share Posted January 6, 2014 Got an appointment at the doc's this morning and just had a chat about it. Been given the number for one to one counselling and put on a really low dose of citalopram just to see how I get on. Quite relieved actually to have finally done something about it. I owe quite a bit to my new girlfriend for being really good and open about her own problems with mental illness as it made me ready to go and see someone. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
P.C Posted January 6, 2014 Share Posted January 6, 2014 Got an appointment at the doc's this morning and just had a chat about it. Been given the number for one to one counselling and put on a really low dose of citalopram just to see how I get on. Quite relieved actually to have finally done something about it. I owe quite a bit to my new girlfriend for being really good and open about her own problems with mental illness as it made me ready to go and see someone. I always find opening up to folk close to me really difficult so kudos to you mate and its always a bit of a relief when they support rather than lecture or if they can relate with their own experiences 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Raidernation Posted January 8, 2014 Share Posted January 8, 2014 I am having a really hard time coming home from work to an empty house, it's killing me 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
banterman86 Posted January 8, 2014 Share Posted January 8, 2014 I am having a really hard time coming home from work to an empty house, it's killing me Get yourself something to distract yourself - maybe a really good box set series or something? 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
P.C Posted January 8, 2014 Share Posted January 8, 2014 I am having a really hard time coming home from work to an empty house, it's killing me This time of year really doesnt help either. Try and find something to distract yourself or try and make plans outwidth your house to shake things up a little. If you do go down the boxset route Breaking Bad wouldn't go far asmiss For some strange reason despite feeling down for the last few weeks im strangely cheery today. Probably just all the sugar in my system 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RH33 Posted January 8, 2014 Share Posted January 8, 2014 I've not had a great couple of weeks. Had a heap of input from psychologist but I'm through it safely. also have raised far more than I ever thought I would for SAMH for the 5k I'm doing on Saturday. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ICTChris Posted January 8, 2014 Share Posted January 8, 2014 Not sure if this is the right thread for this but here's an interesting article about Tom Fraser, who went missing following Belladrum last year. It's a pretty unique perspective into a missing person case, from the point of view of the missing person. http://thepopcop.co.uk/2013/12/the-boy-who-went-missing-from-belladrum/ 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Raidernation Posted January 8, 2014 Share Posted January 8, 2014 Problem is, due to work hours, I get home at 9pm at night and have to make something to eat. By the time I've done that I'm usually not interested in watching TV....I record stuff I miss, usually watch it the following morning 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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