scotfree Posted June 13, 2014 Share Posted June 13, 2014 Shit, Id hate to see you in full blown mania mode! It's a nasty sight... 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Raidernation Posted June 13, 2014 Share Posted June 13, 2014 Tired, did not sleep last night/this morning 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Raidernation Posted June 14, 2014 Share Posted June 14, 2014 Today has been a bad day memory wise but a good day in terms of looking forward 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scotfree Posted June 14, 2014 Share Posted June 14, 2014 Today has been a bad day memory wise but a good day in terms of looking forward Do you do much exercise Raider? I know it's hard as f**k to get out that door at times but it's well worth getting out and even if it's only a wee walk round the block to start off with. I try and do at least 30 mins of exercise a day. I've even joined the gym and get there every 2 days. It WILL help. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Raidernation Posted June 14, 2014 Share Posted June 14, 2014 (edited) I do the garden (which I hate) and I go for a walk every day, at least 30 mins ETA if I had a decent bike I'd be out on that every day Edited June 14, 2014 by Raidernation 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rene Fonck Posted June 14, 2014 Share Posted June 14, 2014 I do the garden (which I hate) and I go for a walk every day, at least 30 mins ETA if I had a decent bike I'd be out on that every day Any bike recycle projects in your area? Pick up excellent refurb bike for peanuts. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fafc1885 Posted June 16, 2014 Share Posted June 16, 2014 I feel almost the same as DA Baracus said a couple of pages back about loneliness, I don't have many friends and out of the ones I do, I only really hang out with one, who is always with his girlfriend, so I feel like there's not much point in hanging out with him either. With a girlfriend situation, it's been awful, I've never had a proper one, I had an internet 'girlfriend' two years ago and I wish I never did it in hindsight as it was a stupid situation (I think I've mentioned that in here before). I was seeing a girl a month ago but she messed me around and I never really felt right which sounds stupid, but I'm not used to something like going out with someone. Even at the best of times I feel extremely lonely and I have zero confidence still to do anything to rectify that. The only time I feel comfortable speaking to new people is over the internet as that seems like I can be a more confident person than I am. On another note, my weight seems to have gotten worse again as I am at the biggest I have ever been and it's only making my mood worse, which makes me want to eat more and obviously that's making me heavier. I have no motivation to do exercise at all either. I have a feeling I wouldn't be so bad if I had a proper job, just now I volunteer to write reports/articles for Forfar, the local paper, the main women's team and occasionally the local junior sides which is keeping me happy and occupied at times but I was meant to be getting a job with my friend at a cleaning company until they decided to go back on an agreement for a job and not hire me at all. I've also applied for as many jobs as I can with no reply from anyone. Apologies for the rambling nonsense in this but I feel better saying it rather than keeping it all in. I haven't posted in here since last year so I thought I'd give some form of update on my depression. Whether it actually is depression or not, I don't know, I've been told it's a different thing every time I go to the mental health ward (mild depression/severe anxiety episodes, severe social anxiety, I'm not depressed at all and something like borderline personality disorder). In the first few months this year I've felt quite down but I'm not exactly sure why and the Moclobemide I was on weren't really helping me, along the same lines as the ones I was on in 2012 so I stopped taking them and I've been feeling slightly better since. This may be due to the fact I've decided to tackle my weight and since mid-May have been going out for a long walk most days which is helping to clear my head and various exercises. I do still feel lonely but not as much as I did in December as I have pretty much resigned myself to never getting anywhere near having a girlfriend. I am still struggling to find a job but have been getting on well with my journalism as I am now getting Forfar Farmington reports printed in a bigger area paper (I think it covers Tayside, Angus, Perth and Fife but I may be wrong) as well as being told I will get to do all the Forfar Athletic reports for the Forfar Dispatch as well as Forfar Farmington, who are wanting me to do more media work for them. This is all still voluntary just now but I should hopefully be getting some form of payment for doing all these reports soon. The extremely frustrating thing about doing all this is that there are people in the media who write things much worse than me (I'm not bigging myself up here, I'm my own worst critic when it comes to my reports) and I'm struggling to get people to read my stuff, which I know deserves more than just the 50-60 views I currently get on my blog. Overall I do think things are getting better than they were at the beginning of the year, which is unusual for me! 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RH33 Posted June 16, 2014 Share Posted June 16, 2014 I have bpd so feel free to drop me a pm. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gorilla Posted June 16, 2014 Share Posted June 16, 2014 Things are a wee bit better for me now after the past 7 months or so. I still have the days where I can't be bothered to do much, I think I have found another good escape for me and its model making, I can lose hours from the world around me while working on a model or two it often helps me refocus on things. It is also helping I'm getting to see my kids more and I'm now in a better position to try and find a place of my own. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pittsburgh phil Posted June 25, 2014 Share Posted June 25, 2014 First time post in here - Feeling a bit lost at the moment. Work sucks, money worries, gf worries, feeling anxious and drinking too much.. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DA Baracus Posted June 25, 2014 Share Posted June 25, 2014 What sort of money problems have you got? I might be able to help as I have been through money issues (loads of debt to various folk including pay day lenders, banks and credit cards). If you don't want to say it on here, drop me a PM if you want. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pittsburgh phil Posted June 25, 2014 Share Posted June 25, 2014 What sort of money problems have you got? I might be able to help as I have been through money issues (loads of debt to various folk including pay day lenders, banks and credit cards). If you don't want to say it on here, drop me a PM if you want. Thanks man, just PM'd you.. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DA Baracus Posted June 25, 2014 Share Posted June 25, 2014 Thanks man, just PM'd you.. I've just replied 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
THE KING Posted June 25, 2014 Share Posted June 25, 2014 First time post in here - Feeling a bit lost at the moment. Work sucks, money worries, gf worries, feeling anxious and drinking too much.. Do something that makes you feel happy . 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pittsburgh phil Posted June 25, 2014 Share Posted June 25, 2014 Do something that makes you feel happy . Yeah, I'm trying to do that - trouble is I'm not getting much joy from anything just now... 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
THE KING Posted June 25, 2014 Share Posted June 25, 2014 Yeah, I'm trying to do that - trouble is I'm not getting much joy from anything just now... Sorry to hear that mate you should try looking into (Mindfulness) works well for me . 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pittsburgh phil Posted June 25, 2014 Share Posted June 25, 2014 Sorry to hear that mate you should try looking into (Mindfulness) works well for me . Will do mate - is that a website or a group or something? 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
NotThePars Posted June 25, 2014 Share Posted June 25, 2014 I was given a disc on mindfulness off someone today. Planning to give it a go and start chilling out properly for at least 10 minutes a day. 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
THE KING Posted June 25, 2014 Share Posted June 25, 2014 (edited) Will do mate - is that a website or a group or something?Aye just google it theres plenty of free stuff out there , the NHS are into it in a big way now for dealing with stress , depression or chronic pain, its been used for millennia and can be a great way of helping yourself.http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/stress-anxiety-depression/Pages/mindfulness.aspx Edited June 25, 2014 by THE KING 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sir Kevin Of Kilsyth Posted June 30, 2014 Share Posted June 30, 2014 (edited) Might give that a bash. Things looking up a bit. Got a job offer today. Just call centre stuff but its a start. Taking a step back to take 2 forward I like to think of it. I still feel shite sometimes but not quite as bad. Money worries and feelings of uselessness still exist but should subside when I get up and running. Tablets coupled with not drinking much definetely helping. I've came to the conclusion that it was without a doubt the job I was in that made me as bad as I was (I know it somewhat existed before that but nowhere near as bad). When I think of all the shit I took, I feel angry with myself for accepting it (used to be a hardman you know lol). See how I go eh. Edited June 30, 2014 by Sir Kevin Of Kilsyth 0 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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