That pretty much sums me up. I did reasonably well out of the football and darts but whenever I went in to collect it was rare i'd come out with anything when I sat down to play the roulette.
I haven't gambled for about 7 months now but find myself still adjusting to what most would consider to be a normal level of money. I've probably got about £60-£80 a week left over after i've paid the bills etc. When 'in action' so to speak, I didn't feel right unless I had £100+ in my wallet should the need arise to play the roulette (which was about 90% of the time I walked past the shop). I'd have about 10 days of the month where I lived like a king and then be flat broke for three weeks, borrowing a fiver here and there so I could get myself some dinner.
I go to the GA meetings now and it's heart-breaking seeing some of the 18/19/20 year old boys come in all stoney faced knowing exactly how they feel. The shame is, probably 95% of them turn up to one or two meetings and they are never to be seen again.